Writers Block ( BrainStorming) Questions for Existance

Unexplained phenom a

This year was rather peculiar year  I was going to write about every incident I've faced since I had altercation with the authorities. I'm finding out things which I know aren't really true or maybe I just don't have time to study or investigate these findings. I'm startled at finding out I'm being lied to constantly and knowing from a medical stand point that being conditioned to injustice as youth adolescent has not been healed and as adult I suffer from systematic Injustice from institutionalized racism,sexism,ageism,

societism,,financialism, being desensitized to inferior beliefs and activities of gangs rather authority,tribal or native.

  Being traumatized and realizing after years of living in Injustice I have learned to not let the negative actions thoughts behaviors of my enemies or the system or any persons whose beliefs may be different from mine to cause me to commit or keep myself in criminal element of making mistakes get to me. Alot of things which happened which were out of my control like mice in controlled labs being controlled for experiments the outcome is what. I have no idea I ask god why I have went through the things I've went through if I could of controlled the outcome I would but trying to understand the outcome is like trying to understand how a virus of clean energy can become infected due series of numbers like movie matrix but how could something which is UN seen Odorless cant be traced but can be harnessed into the makings of Internet,television,camera,lights,electrical systems,vehicles, and every cyber network of the world allowed be controlled by push of button. Trying to forget my humble yet unexplainable upbringings is like trying explain how nature harvest some plants which need sun light and h20 while some vegetation doesn't require sun light or h20.

Where did these negative circumstances come from which like many African Americans or people of color or indigenous people we have been introduced and conditioned to environments un-suitable for
Living,health,beliefs,traditions,religion,faiths,customs,families,cultures, and what have you. As youth I studied alot of material not because I wanted to stay healthy or because as youth I knew something was wrong and I couldn't figure out why kids I grew up with were parentless or some youth had sale drugs and rob people to get by because, they grew up parentless or were disenfranchised due to big corporations not wanting to provide proper or they didn't have resources like myself I didn't depend on government because i worked alot.

 But what do you do when your unemployed,disabled,partially blind,hearing impaired, immobile and the county offices won't approve your medical claims or even worse a gang has your community,family,friends or some your siblings held hostage under the demise of material gain to provide for their families but the very Injustice their committing to you or your loved ones is same reasons unlike adoption agencies they should adopt take care and make-you their friend or business associate or gang member but when those kind of illegal elements are taking place you can't trust criminals who will do anything to you to protect their way of life. Especially if they feel like I might report them to authorities this is to say if their isn't corruption or abuse of power  between the gangs and authorities.

Sometimes I ask myself if I knew the answers to what I suffer from but couldn't prevent those elements of Injusitce or crime,war,natural or human disaster. Why should I write about those things. If the world suffers from world war under many demises the correct way to cure the world would be world peace right. But how does a scientist who cant secure funding from government agencies because the ideas I come up with don't seem like a field they want to make research or university course or field of study to fund because my ideas sound far fetched but yet. The idea of a system which hosts situations which cause many injustice cant fund enough people to want to study these strange behaviors and phenom a. Yet if I come up with a new field of study which like how most fields become created by learning these strange events after they occurs like trying explain years and centuries of cycles of planets in same deja vu with no explanation of why every nation and element of scientific chart hasn't Evovled same with the injustices among people why haven't the attitudes among people changed. Then what's point of writing about it all.

I say to myself from scientific stand point frequency beams control grids which people use the power to live in thriving cities . Those jobs are only allowed to people who are smart enough to understand those tests and past the exams for those field but what if I have a field where unexplained phenomena hasn't been created and hasn't been explained yet by all years of research in every field. Is their a field to study universal cycles. Is their a field to study the control of the elements which make up every universally control substance or sub atomic particle which religion,science and many theories are made into industries which people obtain degrees for but humanity is suffering due to energy field of imbalance in thoughts and educational levels. In order study the UN seen the odorless the senseless the feeling less emotionless is like trying ask our creator to explain why our god made us go through centuries past to present of situations which arent meant to experiencethe greatness of earth but yet the worst of the planet. I'm not atheist I'm artists. But my art is like stars in sky attempts at  hoping people look at me and reason with why I shine but I don't look any different from any other star until you take time to study astronomy or astrology or space exploration or fact that gravity holds every element in universe in exact mathematical configuration without every galaxy crashing into themselves but yet comets crash into planets all time same way bullet pierce soul of innocent victims to violence being in wrong place at wrong time. Same as cultures have been erased for being on wrong planet in wrong century. Same as galaxies are being erased for existing in universe at wrong century for reasons beyond what most scientists cant explain.

What frightens me most is thinking to myself if I could metamorph and travel into time and into future and prevent every injustice before they occur would that be a field to study or finance if my government won't allow me to join ranks with them. If my government won't prevent gangs from situations I've written about in previous issues I've had with trying  to study and discover the meaning or existing. Same as when people communities become sick or environmentally unstable to live in same as the planet isn't safe to live in how do people,government,societies cope with these issues and not cause the very exact issues to re occur again. If I m trying to prevent universal  Injustice, deforestation,dehumanization,deglobalization, deplanitation,de galaxization, de molecular anatomicaliztion, would I be wrong for trying to question the theory of cycles of existence and why every element or universal chart hasn't Evolve past the universe considering we dont exist if these situations can end after experience these events but what I'm getting at is how do people stop these events in history past to present future and beyond  before they happen and in future without causing the cycles to continue which are destructive to our DNA, molecule,atom,universal and beyond charts.



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